The Day She Died * Golden

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It took everything I hated and destroyed it, leaving faint memories behind.
It took me down a road so twisted it disturbed the essence of my being, yet led me to
my life,
my love,
my Daniel.
If life is for the living, how can I walk among them?
Am I here to protect or to maim and destroy?
Have I become what I am because of what I was –
has what I was capable of doing as a human opened up the gates into immortality?
And if so, who rules eternity?
If I give up my eternity for another’s,
will it take away the pain and guilt I feel crushing my heart from inside,
or will it take me straight to hell?

Goodreads Ya Book Of The Month : Please Vote !

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Hello peeps, I have been nominated for Ya Book of the month on goodreads – if you would like to vote, pretty please 🙂 Thank you for the support –
 

Vampire Conspiracy (Nr2)

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Sometimes grave robbers would open a coffin and the corpse would move or sit up—a natural reaction that can be caused by decomposition. This may have led to the legend of vampires sleeping in coffins.

My Job, My Children and School Holidays

As a parent (sorry all none parents) do you love or hate, look forward to or dread SCHOOL HOLIDAYS?

I’m all of the above, and with the Christmas ones now a few weeks behind us and half term, Easter and half term looming in front of us, its a good topic to work through – or so I thought.

By trade, I am not an Author only. My main income and full time job is running my clothes stores. So I have two full time jobs. My new Author status came along with all sorts of extra duties I never anticipated like, for example, running a blog. Until I wrote Golden, I never had two minutes spare to ever follow or read a blog, let alone write one. Then you have Facebook and Twitter to keep up to date, new and exciting people to talk to… the list goes on. Its a whole new amazing world, but very time consuming.

And then comes my hobby, we breed dogs, and puppies are a lot of work.

So where does my family, my husband and children fit into my 16 hour days? They wiggle themselves in around the edges and on any average day I feel overwhelmed by guilt at not having enough time for them.

So to the holidays, disaster ! Now I don’t have holidays, so I am at work. But, mostly I work from home, so I am here, with the children and the dogs, working and ignoring them as best as I can to get any work done. It is wretched, I hate it. But not because my kids are in my way, but because I feel so guilty at not being able to give them all my 100% undivided attention at all times. I try, I scramble and stress myself out, every single day trying to be the best working mum I can, but is it enough?

For that reason I love Christmas. We close our shops for two weeks, I lock my Laptop away and my phone is turned oFf and I just hang out with the kids. For two whole weeks.

And I wonder, on their first day back at school, why I work so hard the other 50 weeks a year. Why do I not cut back my hours, work less, spend more time with my beautiful boys and give myself a break?

So every year, my New Years Resolution, after two weeks of being offline is that I will not get sucked back into my work-hole. That I will not let it be all consuming and on my mind 24/7.

And, like all New Years resolutions in the history of New Years resolutions it lasts about a week before I am back in the zone again, counting the days to the Christmas holiday, wishing I was a stay at home mum with not a money worry in the world.